I’m sitting here at my dinner table in my new place – drinking tea and gathering my life. Today, I ate pizza rolls for lunch and pancakes for dinner – only certain people would understand that combination. Furthermore, I just got done crying. After I’ve kept my hope up for so long, I hit another one of those walls. I just texted my mother and told her I wasn’t sure about being an artist. When I said it, I knew I wouldn’t quit, but I needed someone to believe in me.
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As an artist, I am deciding to take a step back and reevaluate exactly what I am looking for. What exactly does it mean to be a “full time artist?” What does it mean to be successful as an artist? Is it being rich? Is it being comfortable? Right now, not being an artist and finding a corporate job seems easy, but I know the easy way has never been for me. Working for myself is in my blood; I come from people who have successfully ran their own businesses. Considering I have not picked up a brush in over a month, I really need to lay aside some of these expectations that have taken the fun out of my craft. With that, I am able to have more of a clear vision of where I’m going.
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P.S. – I was just commissioned for the first time for a painting. That’s a huge success for me!
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For me to be a 17 year old student in high-school(Senior this year), athlete, and artist, what you said resonated with me so much. All the time I speak in existence that “I will be that next well renowned artist,” but I do get a little discouraged when I see if I’m not making enough money were I can give back to my mother or grandparents. Then how will my craft support me when I’m off on my own? I want to go to college to major in Fine Arts, but when everything is said and done how will I be financially stable? With all the thoughts that may trail through my head, the only thing that keeps me from worrying alot is the faith that God will make a way for me in the usage of the gift that he has blessed me with. Having that faith in something that you have a passion for, and you recongnize that you truly have a miraculous gift for whatever it is that you do, through Christ it’s attainable.
Thanks for commenting! I checked out your work and it’s amazing btw?! Everything you said is encouraging and I can encourage you by saying that if I could do it again, I def would major in art as an undergraduate student. I’m past college now, but I let those thoughts about being financially stable get to me at the beginning and I didn’t put the time into my craft that was needed. Now I’m out of college and trying to put in the time while I support myself otherwise! You’re in a great place and your work is already A1. Like you said, God will make a way. I believe your gift will bring you before great men!??
Why thank you, I appreciate those words of encouragement as well!